I drank yesterday at the school fair, crap, it was out of the blue and it was a situation I just hadn’t thought would happen. I was having a great day at the fair, had spent the morning helping set up and man stalls, I had just sat down with hubby and some friends to have a bit of lunch and a chat when one of the mums opened up a bottle of wine and poured everyone a glass, I drank it, I know it sounds so stupid, why didn’t I just say ‘no thanks’ ‘I’m driving’ something anything, I think it was more the fact that I wasn’t even asked do you want a drink, for this situation I had practiced my ‘no thank yous’ but to just have it put into my hand with no question just threw me, I know its sounding more and more pathetic but there we go, it was a situation I wasn’t prepared for and I failed. Maybe it would have been ok if I stopped at that one glass but I had 3 more and then me and hubby went to the pub and had 3 more and then came home and finished off a bottle of wine – blergh.
I feel like shite today – understandably. But once again I am reminded of why me and wine are not a good fit, drinking usually results in two endings, either I manage to moderate and only have 2 glasses of wine, I then feel all proud and think ‘look I don’t have a problem, I can drink sensibly’ which then results in me drinking more and more each night till I end up in an awful state’ or I just go for it from the beginning and end up in an awful state – see me and wine do not mix.
So heres to another day one – hopefully this one with a different ending.